As I CeLebRate my son’s 4th birthday this week and my daughter’s 2nd birthday next month, I also celebrate the amazing gift of mOtherHood. Always knowing that being a mom was the #1 goal of my life, I couldn’t understand why I was constantly crying after I brought my son home from the hospital. Baby blues quickly turned to full blown postpartum depression. Thoughts like, “What was I thinking when I wanted to have a baby,” “Am I ever going to have a conversation with my husband again,” and “I just want to be me again” raced through my head.
Feelings of shame, guilt, and fear felt like they were suffocating me. I even thought my son might be better off without me. I thank God for my wonderful friends, family, and doctors for Getting Me throuGh my darkest moments. With therapy and medication I slowly got better and became the mother I so longed to be.
Two years later I delivered my beAutiful baby girl and like a dark cloud drifting over me, my PPD was back. As I held my daughter in my hospital bed, I looked at my husband and said, “It’s back.” You would think it would be easier the second time but it was actually worse. I knew the scary thoughts…I had just lived them two years ago. “Why me” was all I could think this time.
Both bouts with PPD lasted about 2 months. I try not to dwell on those days as time lost with my babies, but as times that made me FiGht to be the mother I am today. I now know that there is No ShaMe in having PPD, it wasn’t my fault that I got it, and with help you can get through it. Whether you or someone you know is going through PPD or any obstacle, remember you CAN get through it and are stronger than you think!
~Robyn (Jersey Girl)
We absolutely LOVE summer and the 4th of JULY!!!
We wish you a wonderful Independence Day! Thanks for being our friends!!
Did you ever have a penpal? Back in elementary school I remember our teacher assigning us one as a class project. My penpal’s name was Alexis, from Pennsylvania. The thrill of running to the mailbox to see if there was a letter from her (and maybe even a picture included!) is a memory I won’t forget. How cool it was to have a conversation and friendship with a person whom I had never met living life a thousand miles away.
I’ve had the fortune through my internet business to develop similar “penpal” relationships with people all across the country. Shauna is from Utah. She helped me get started with my block business. When I was going to be featured in Baby Talk magazine, Heather from California gave me tips on what to expect with the increase in customers. I was even a bit of an inspiration to Robyn from New Jersey, to encourage her to start her own craft business on the internet.
Similar to my elementary school days, these are my modern day “penpals” who I visit with on occasion and we share our thoughts and successes. I consider these women my friends, even though I am in the middle of the country and they are states away in opposite directions. Technology CAN be such a wonderful thing!
20.2. . .
. . .miles down and only 6 more miles to go. (sigh)
A week ago I ran in the Oklahoma City Marathon and if I had to describe my experience in one word, it would be BRUTAL!! I won’t go into details, but you’ll get the picture with these descriptive words: lightning, thunder, rain, hail, wind, cold temps . . .
When training for my first marathon I remember reading that the last 6 miles of a marathon were the toughest. I think I would have to agree. By the 20-MiLe mArK, my muscles were cramping, I was tired, and the thought of another six miles was exhausting. However, I had come too far, I cOuLDn’t qUiT.
This probably sounds really cliché, but life is like that MaRatHoN. You find yourself too far in to turn back, but still with a ways to go and with the FiNiSh LiNe nowhere in sight. If you find yourself at the 20.2 mark in some area of your life here are some tips that might help you finish your “marathon”.
- Get a cHeEriNg section. The first marathon I ran was a small one with a course that wove around the countryside. As a result, there was really no one cheering us on until we got to the outskirts of town which was basically about six miles from the finish line. It was at this point that we began to see spectators and finally had people ChEeRiNg us on. If you don’t have people cheering you on, get some. Find some friends that you can share YoRr rAcE with and enlist as a cheering section. Make sure you are willing to do the same for them. What you sow you reap.
- Keep your FoCuS on the finish line, not the pain.
- FuEL Up! When running longer races, runners take enery with them. A couple of things I have used are Gu’s and Shot Bloks – little PaCkEtS of eNerGy. I pack them in a running pouch and every so often I take them to fuel my body. In your race, you will need to fuel up. This may be different for everyone. Find out what fuels you – spending time with fReNds, a good book, a long wALk, a drive in the countryside. Don’t forget to stay plugged in to PrAyEr and the Bible, the best energy boosts of all!
- Let your CoMmiTMeNt dictate your life, not your feelings. Keep praying even if it FeEls like the prayers don’t make it further than the ceiling. Keep reading the BiBLe even if it feels futile. Refuse to quit, PeRiOd.