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Put On Your Big Girl Panties And Deal With It

Growing up I was extremely lucky as far as my weight was concerned.  I was able to eat whatever I wanted and whenever I wanted and never gained a pound.  I didn’t worry about my clothes fitting and I didn’t think twice about wearing a bikini to the beach. By age 25 I got married, my metabolism had started changing, and the weight started creeping up.  Over two years of infertility led to more weight gain and I delivered my son weighing 67 pounds heavier than I was on my wedding day.

After Nicholas was born I decided to join Weight Watchers to help take the weight off.  Knowing that getting back to my pre-baby weight was NoT A ReAliTy, I set a goal that I thought I could maintain.  Losing the weight was the easy part…keeping it off was another story.  Over the next year and a half I watched the scale go up and down until I reached my goal weight for the second time only to find out a week later that I was pregnant with my daughter.  WoO-hOo, not only was I shocked and elated that I was pregnant without having to go through the grueling infertility struggle that I went through for my son, but now I  had a FrEePaSs to eat whatever I wanted again.

I didn’t gain as much weight with Abby’s pregnancy as I did with Nicholas’, but I don’t think having a toasted coconut donut and a large dunkachino every day from May to August was a smart move.  My weight fluctuated for the next year and a half until it got to a point where I couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror.  There were many people, friends and family included, who would say, “You are small you don’t need to lose weight.”  I was already upset and stressed about the way I looked and when I heard things like that it made me feel like what I was going through WaSn’T ReaL to anyone else.  I got to a point where I was eating and eating ridiculous amounts of snacks and sweets and I wasn’t fitting into any of my clothes.  I was my highest non-pregnancy weight and just couldn’t get control of it.  As NuTtY as it may sound, I decided that taking a picture of myself in the mirror wearing my bra and underwear was going to be my motivation.  I loathed and hated the picture.  The girl in the picture was so far from who I wanted to be and it was a huge WaKe-Up CaLL.  It is one thing to stuff yourself into clothes and cover up with a big shirt or sweater, but it is another to look at yourself over and over again with nothing sucking you in or hiding the skin.

I joined Weight Watchers again in January 2011, but this time I did all of my weigh-ins online and downloaded the Weight Watchers app on my phone.  I followed the plan, but allowed myself to ChEaT a little on weekends.  By June I had lost 20 pounds and was thrilled with my success.  I’ve struggled since June to keep the weight off, but am trying to make peace with myself and accept the ups and downs that come with weight loss.

With Thanksgiving tomorrow and Christmas right around the corner I know the next month is not going to be easy.  I know denying myself treats like sweet potato casserole and Christmas cookies will only make me depressed so I will allow myself to indulge in the things that I love, but at a reasonable helping.  If I notice the weight starting to CrEeP back up, I know I have my trusty camera and can stand in front of the mirror in my bra and underwear anytime!

~Jersey Girl~

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From the Confessional: Eating, Weight and Self-Image

Have you ever found that no matter what “wEiGht” you are, you find yourself either struggling with food, unsatisfied with some area of your body, or feel overwhelmed with pressure to stay skinny after you lost weight (especially if people noticed and made a big deal about it!)?

The more women I talk to, the more I realize that no matter what size you are, women struggle when it comes to PeAcE with FoOd, the number on the scale, and body image. Most women believe that if you look thin (or you’ve maintained your healthy BMI weight), that those women are automatically happy, never struggle with food temptation, and rarely step on the scale because looking like that comes easy. Let me tell you, this is not true.

Growing up I didn’t struggle with weight as much as I struggled with my self-image. I was a chubby kid in junior high and after hitting a growth spurt in high school, staying thin didn’t take much eFFoRt. Looking back though, I was never satisfied with my body…how sad when I look back at pictures of myself!

It wasn’t until I became pregnant with my first child that I was truly huMbLed when it came to weight. I gained over 60 lbs and looked so different that some people didn’t even recognize me. I remember coming home from the hospital thinking, “This is it. I will no longer be able to wear skinny jeans.” I believed it so much that I gave 5 trash bags full of clothes to goodwill within the first couple months of being a new mom! Fast forward 4 years and another kiddo…I wish I wouldn’t have given up on myself so easy! I was able to eventually lose the weight and could have enJoyEd some of those favorite outfits again.

Even though I am at my lowest weight since college, I still struggle with PeAcE wiTh FoOd. I LOVE sweets and have a hard time eating in moderation at times. When I let my guard down I eat too much and then feel horrible the next day.  Often times I “throw in the towel” and eat poorly for a week or so and then have to finally snap out of it. It becomes a vicious cycle of giving in, feeling bad, giving myself a pep-talk to start eating right and exercising, etc. So don’t be fooled! Even though I may look and feel bEttEr than I have in years, I have to talk to myself daily in order to maintain my current weight.

We are going to be talking a lot more about this topic on the Suede Sofa because we have had so many women share such similar thoughts regarding weight and food. You are probably telling yourself that no one feels the same way you do, but I can assure you most women have been where you are right now.

I look forward to sharing more of my story and thoughts with you. No life is as pErfeCt as it appears on the outside so give yourself a break and stop comparing yourself to every woman you pass on the street. If only you could visit with them for a second and realize that you both feel the SAME way, regardless if you look completely different! As you read more of our stories I think you will find great comfort in knowing that no matter where you are in your PeAce with FoOd journey, you are not alone.

If you agree or liked this post, do us a favor today and click “like” on the facebook link below or comment under this post.  Use a screen name if you don’t want your real name exposed.   Sharing our personal stories on this subject is not easy.  By responding to this post we will be reAssuRed that you want to hear more about our experiences on PeAce WitH Food.

Thanks for Reading!

~Lara

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Never Say “Never”

Have you ever caught yourself sAyinG something like, “I would NEVER do that!  I would NEVER put myself in that situation or make a decision like that person!” Someone once told me that you have to be careful using the word “NEVER” because often life makes you fAce the things you don’t wish for.

Even though I grew up on a farm I always told my parents I “never” wanted to marry a farmer.  I thought I had my life Planned out and wanted to work in an office somewhere in a big city.  Sure enough, I married a farm boy but couldn’t be hAppier.

I had always maiNtained a healthy weight throughout college and marriage.  However, when I got pregnant with my daughter, I gained twice as much weight as I was supposed to.  So much for being PROUD of my weight control!

Life can be really huMbling and I’ve LeArNed to not be quick to judge or too sure of how life is going to turn out.  Having goals and expectations are gReat, but the next time you look at someone else and find yourself saying “I would NEVER…” be cAreful what you say.  Life has a way of ushering you down a particular pAth and we can’t always see the twists and turns that lie ahead.

~Lara

(*Pictured above is my loving “farmer” and our sweet lab, Grace)

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Accountability Partner

It seems like I have always tried to lose weight.  When I had a baby, it was a cHallenGe to get back to my previous weight.  Even during my pre-kid days, I was trying different weight loss tactics to shed those last several pounds.  This year I’ve had my BEST SUCCESS at eating right and in moderation, thanks to one thing…my accountability partner!

In the past, I remember wanting to ask someone to hold me accountable for my weight loss.  Subconsciously though, I knew if I ever wanted to quit my diet, I could give up and no one
would know.  In reAlity, I was setting myself up to fail before I ever started!  Asking someone to hold you accountable is scary, but in the end, it will determine how serious you really are about wanting to cHanGe.

Finding the right person to share your jouRney with is important. My accountability person is someone that I don’t necessarily see often, but who I have to share my weigh-in number with every week.  We don’t work out together, but text or call each other with what we are up to (good and bad).  You must be comFortable enough with this person so you can “be real” and trust that even if you gain a pound or two, they won’t judge you but continue to enCouRage.

Is there a habit you can’t kick? Perhaps you should REACH OUT to a good friend and ask them for help.  It not only will strengthen your relationship with them, but have poSitiVe Results on achieving your goal!

~Lara

P.S — A big shout-out to my accountability partner today!  Wouldn’t have the success I’m having if it wasn’t for YOU!!  Thanks :)

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